The Lingering Pain Of Sinning

To be sure,
every single one of us is a sinner.
But what distinguishes some from others is that some people feel no remorse for past sins,while others feel a great deal of remorse.
The latter group repents and continually strives to improve,
while the former group sits back self-complacently,
going through the motions of life without appreciating the significance of their actions.

          An example of such a person is the noble Companion,Sa'id bin Amir.

During the caliphate of Umar bin Al-Khattab, Sa'id bin Amar was the governor of Hims, a city in Ashsham.
When Umar visited hims to see how things were going there, he was met by a large group of people who began to complain to him about Sa'id.
Basically, they found fault with Sa'id in 4 matters.

First,they said,he would not come out to them until mid-morning.
Second, he would refuse to answer any caller during the night.
Third, once a month, he would stay away from the people.
Fourth, every once in a while, Sa'id would faint and lose consciousness for no apparent reason.

The leader of the believers asked Sa'id to respond to their complaints.

In regard to the first complaint, Sa'id explained that he had no servant and that, every morning, he had to crush his own wheat in order to make a bread.As soon as he would finish making his bread,he said,he would then go out to serve the people.

As for not answering any callers during the night, he said that he dedicated his days to serving the people, and his nights to worshiping Allah.

As for not going out to the people once a month, he explained that he had only one garment and that he washed it once a month and had to then wait until it dried.

As for passing out every so often, Sa'id gave this explanation,
"When I was a polytheist, I witnessed the brutal execution of Habib Al-Ansari in Makkah. I saw how the Quraish cut up his flesh (little by little).
They said (to Habib),
"Do you testify that Muhammad is the Messenger of God?" "Yes," Habib replied. "I testify that Muhammad is the Messenger of God."
Musaylamah was visibly angry. "And do you testify that I am the Messenger of God?" He was almost insisting, rather than questioning. "My ears have been blocked against hearing what you claim," replied Habib.

Every time I remember that day and how I refrained from helping Habib - for I was a polytheist and did not believe in Allah, the All-Might- I begin to think that Allah Azza Wa Jall will never forgive me. It is then I (faint) , O leader of the Believers.

For a sincere person, sin is painful, its pain lingers in his heart for many years, very often until the day he/she dies.

Kembara Hidayat

It may be long and it may be tiring to stay on the track as a good Muslims, I always remind myself,

"if the end destination is definite,It’s super worth it to keep struggling!"

When I attach to the impossible, it's hard to stay hopeful. This is how do I keep myself to stay strong in this "kembara hidayat", I will search a quotes about Islam, listen to Islamic song, read Islamic blog/page in face-book such as : yasmin mogahed, prof.dr.muhaya, zon kuliah, hamasah as-syabab, aku bukan superman, angel pakai gucci, tarbiyah sentap & etc, stay positive, optimist, and don't forget to Ask Him (Allah S.W.T).When problems are so big and our strength is no longer enough to carry them, don't give up! because, where our strength ends, the Grace of ALLAH begins.

"Some flowers grow best in the sun, others do well in the shade. Allah always knows what is best for us, so He puts us where we grow the best."

Kadang- kadang orang itu terpeleset bukan kerana bodoh, tapi kerana dikuasai akalnya sahaja dan ada masa kita terasa seperti tidak diberi pilihan dan tidak berupaya membuat pilihan ikut kehendak sendiri. Bila tersekat antara hati dan kemahuan. Seperti mahu berada jauh dari tempatmu. Lari lah. Tetapi lari lah dgn ucapan istighfar di bibirmu.

" أستغفر الله "

Rasulullah bersabda "Barangsiapa yang sentiasa beristighfar, maka Allah akan memberikan kegembiraan dari setiap kesedihannya, dan kelapangan bagi setiap kesempitannya, dan memberinya rezeki dari arah yang tiada disangka-sangka.”
(HR.Abu Daud, Ibnu Majah dan Ahmad).

When all things went dark and you search for a light to see things clearly that light is HIDAYAT, 

you don't wait for it,you search for it.

"Verily, We showed him the way (hidayat), whether he be grateful (syukur) or ungrateful (kufur). "

(Al - Insan 76.03).

Thus we have no excuses to say a word that Allah has not give me hidayat so im still waiting.

Chocolate in the Jar

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I love the layered cookie mixes in a jar, and I thought a homemade hot chocolate mix would be absolutely perfect!

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A lovely gift for a friend, a jar containing the main ingredients for chocolate ... Layer the dry ingredients in a one litre jar.

The Prophet s.a.w said, 

"Exchange gifts, as that will lead to 

increasing you love to one another". 

[Bukhari]

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While I stop knitting, I read books. 

When I start knitting, I listen to something good.

And today I would like to share this, 

good for mind, soul and faith. 

Wallahu’alam bissawab.

In Allah I trust. (^_^)

I thank Allah

photo credit to : hazirah hamzah

I thank Allah,

For letting some people into my life that they have taught me some valuable lessons,
It's so true that every person we meet is either a blessing or a lesson.
I could count with my fingers the number of persons who are really a blessing in my life.

Have you heard people saying that life is a journey?
Sometimes life is like the journey you have when walking along a street...
All the human beings in your life are the passers by.
The only one who always walks by your side is He who created us.
We shall never forget that simple fact for He is immortal and we..
the souls that death can touch,eventually will return to Him.

photo credit to : azri azhar

I thank Allah,

For telling me things through people
People taught me that seeking happiness from people is exhausting except from Allah,
People don't intend to understand & listen except Allah,
Love is a give and take relationship except the love of Allah,
Friends are judgmental expect those who befriend you for the sake of Allah,
Words are just words till you act,
Expect disappointments from people but not Allah for each time Allah doesn't grant your prayers,
He is planning for something better & relying upon Allah alone means putting your life in Good Hands.

There are more..
But I'm grateful for some of the truths He has showed me through people for all the bittersweet facts are the ones that make me grow.

In memory

10 Dzul-Hijjah 1433 AH, the day that really test my family's sacrifice.
Hopefully this strengthen our ukhuwah for the sake of Allah.
May the experience bring us closer to Allah.
Rabbuna Yusahhil.Ameen.

Umat ibn Al Khattab (Radhi Allahu anhu) says :

"If Allah S.W.T  strikes me with a calamity,I will thanks Allah for four things:

-That test was not in my deen,
-The calamity could have been worse,
-Its an expiation for my sins,

- Any loss after loosing the messenger of Allah (Sallal lahu allehi wa sallam) is nothing."

So,

Whatever issues from Allah is by definition Beautiful even if we cannot see the that Beauty,
when Allah test our faith with affliction.

Allah knows

When I was in Cork, I was asked in an usrah I attend on how does my studies relates me to Allah. I was really surprised by the question since most of the people in that usrah were medical students who’d always have close relation to Allah in whatever they do.

But as for me, I never really ask that question until someone brought it up, although at first I was clueless of what to answer – the answer I made up on the spot left myself wondering later on of what I am doing.
Does it make me closer to Allah or does it bring me away from Allah? And if it did – how? If it doesn’t – does this means I forget Allah?
Well, my answer that time was that since I always with my video camera which I like to shoot peoples image to get a story, one of the things that will remind me of Allah is the video camera itself.
The camera be it a camera or the video camera works like our eyes, they have their own optic, retina, lenses and several part of the eyes which was applied during the invention of video camera. But the question is not the function of camera like the eyes but the fact that no matter how highly advanced the inventions made by us humans will never match the High Al Mighty’s creation.
Even up till now, we can never find any camera which can capture 180 degree view without ‘panning’ (the term when you shoot from 180 degree angle of an object we shoot) not even the stereoscopic view where humans see their vision or the visions that only animals do.
Because from my own personal experience, to only get a 5 minute documentary, I had to take at least 3 angles of the same view, a medium shot, close up and extreme close up for a more dramatic impact. If it were a short story I’d have to repeat the same action and repeat again if the action does not meet the director’s satisfaction.
Not only that, we’d have to take account on the lights whereby if we don’t get enough day light, we’d use the camera lights to give more lights to the subject. The lights itself would need at least 3 lights, with a ‘3 point lighting’ (position of lights) technique so that there wont have any shadows effecting the object we are recording.
That doesn’t include the make up and other factors that we have to take into account before we shoot anything. And only after a few days of editing process to add some sounds, voice over etc that we be able to view the video all in 5 minutes but actually 5 day to get a 5 minute video. All of the things mentioned will need to be used to get the ‘perfect’ visual but none of these were needed when we use our eyes – the most perfect creation by Allah.

Therefore, in whatever things we do, sometimes we may not be able to explain how our work does relate to Allah or even Islam itself.
But as long as our intention is ‘fissabilillah’ – for the cause of Allah, and that the work is not against the shari’ah (Islamic Law), it doesn’t matter because every action we do will be taken account by Allah. 
After all, Allah knows...

[A reminder to myself first and Foremost, in'sha'Allah]